Thursday, January 30, 2014

Who I Am and What I Dream

I live in an assisted living facility.  My room is roughly 10’ x 12’, but it has a charming kitchenette, complete with dorm-size refrigerator and a microwave.  Friends have donated a toaster oven and a crock pot. 

I have multiple sclerosis (MS) and am in an electric wheelchair, but not just any electric wheelchair – the Cadillac of wheelchairs!  I was very blessed to get this chair, bought for me by Blue Cross/Blue Shield while I was still working, before my Medicaid days.  My job was teaching biology to freshmen college students while working on my Ph.D. in neurobiology. 

Before receiving my diagnosis of MS I was training for a mini-triathlon.  I was/am extremely overweight, but I was determined to meet that goal.  About every other day I would run, bike, or swim.  One day I swam a mile nonstop in the lap pool; the next week I needed a cane to walk.  A few months later I was on a walker, and within the year I was in a wheelchair. 

A few years ago I asked my physical therapist (a wonderful, enthusiastic woman), “If I work really, really hard do you think someday I could complete a mini-triathlon (emphasis on “mini”!)  She looked at me like I was crazy and shook her head “no”.  At that time I could walk fairly comfortably about 120 feet with a walker; now, MAYBE 60 feet, very, very slowly and with great effort.  I would still love to finish a mini-triathlon, well perhaps a mini mini-triathlon - am I allowed designing my own parameters of this triathlon?  ;-)  Actually there are parathriathons perhaps that will be my best option. 

Another dream of mine is to live a life of self-sufficiency, provident living as my church calls it.  I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (LDS or Mormon.)  We are encouraged to have gardens, build up a year’s supply of food, water, and other necessities.  Many of the women in our church, especially in my ward (congregation), which is in a quite rural part of Texas also quilt and sew their own clothes.  If I could, I would love to live off-the-grid and be as self-sufficient as possible. 

Of course, since I’m in an assisted living facility that is impossible, and of course I would no longer even be expected to have a food supply or a garden, but this type of lifestyle intrigues me so much that my heart still pulls me in that direction.  I have begun planning creative lighting and space-saving indoor gardening features.  I have only one window, which faces north, so light is an issue – and space?  THAT is really going to be a challenge, but one I am confident I can concur!


So this is the purpose of my blog - to chronicle my journey to live my dreams; despite a disability and limited resources.  It CAN be done!